Crooked Teeth

so i is be in tennesse!!! :-) one of my favorite places on earth. 
sleeping in a room downstairs with my mom and dad. lmao. that's quite interesting.
bobby and airy are here too. shannon's at home, though i wish she was here. i miss her. :-(
i have a penguin build-a-bear and i saw snow, blah blah blah.
all the boring details of my life. :-)
i want to go home now.
thanksgiving is thursday.
christmas is SOON!
and i don't know what i should get james
hfdghfdgdf
rawr. 
i'll figure it out soon nuff. 
mabey shaving cream 
though he's convinced he ain't shaving his face
fdghfdhgfd RAWR!
that should be his christmas present to me. 
that's all i want, lmao. 
anywayyy...
things are getting interesting but i don't like getting into my personal lyfe so who cares
i'm chewing on a paper clip
i broke tophers heart last year
and now he's dating autumn for the third time
he's dumped her everytime so i guess it works.
she'll dump him soon nuff. 
my penguin (cartman) is hott. 
and i want a son named cartman.
'cause i'm just that obsessed with south park.
hellzyeah. who ain't?
anywayyyy.
i'm rambling in a journal noone uses anymore.
out. <3

i haven't really updated lately, but that's okah i guess. shows i have enough of a life to not spend it at the computer twenty-four-seven. so anywayyy.
dating james, my wonderful. and i love him completely and fully. :] 
i'm having a good enuff life to be happy, even though i know that won't last for much longer.
me being happy never lasts for more tahn 2 months.
even then, i will always have some up's and down's.
i'm just waiting for the down part to occur. it feels big. :\ 
umm, i went to the beach i hung out with lily shannon and kevin. 
i took lots of pictures.
i wrote a poem in science class. (woo)
and i dunno. everything is sorta boring. nothing exciting to report really. 
blah. i need some excitment.
james is supposed to be coming over, actually he's supposed to already be here.
but he's not. hm. he did this to me yesterday too.
he'll come online for 2 minutes to tell me he doesn't feel good.
then i'll be stuck dressed up all pretty and no one to show it off too.
my dad is being a bitch. rawr. what's new?
but over-all today has been good.
and i'm just praying my loser boyfriend doesn't ruin my happiness.
which, he probably will. yeah, shows how much faith i have in him. lol.
well, yeah. that's all. <3

my day sucked. big time.
mike pissed me off really. 
that's the only thing.
other than that it would have been a good day.
i guess it's just PMS.
damn you PMS. damn you.

me, cheli, and erin sang chorus songs for our math class.
we sucked.
didn't warm up, and i barely knew the song.
blah to us. lol.

mike... said james was an oompa loompa
so i'm like "he's an oompa loompa!? YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S AN OOMPA LOOMPA! she's short, fat and ugly!"
and he said i was short, fat, and ugly.
so i just sat there.
and starred for a minute.
containing myself. 
otherwise, i would have gone off on him.
seriously, i would have trashed tara and started cussing BIG time.
i'm kinda glad i didn't. 
i probably would have regretted it in a week.
and made her cry.
lmfao. that would have been funnyyyy.
:D

that is all. bye.

mabey i have the right to be "paranoid"
or mabey i'm just scared because i'm falling in love with him
because last time i started to fall in actual true love i got hurt
and i really rather that not happen
or mabey, mabey i'm right. and mabey things are about to fall apart. 
i dunno what i'd do if i lost him
i seriously don't
i really do love him and it scares me
i've never been so scared in my life.

there is nothing better than waking up in the morning, happy and knowing everything is okah. it's akward having someone in love with you when your not even sure if you love them. akward. but whatever, i deal. :D there's no greater feeling then laying on your floor giggling your brains out. i dunno, no one has ever made me "giggle" before. i dunno. i've been happy lately, and i'm loving every second of it. 

the whole delima with ian is i guess over. mabey he'll stop calling me his secert lover. hopefully. unless he's still "in love" with me. then in that case, i'm pretty much screwed. i feel awful bout what i did to him;; lead him on like that. but hey, ending the whole thing was for the best. what can i say? 

i dunno. life just seems, on the right path. i'm working harder and harder to keep up my grades. i'm spending less time online. i'm watching more and more southpark. i'm smiling more and more. everything just seems, good. and that makes me happy. 

hmmm, there's nothing really to say. just imagine this -- making out with your boyfriend and all of a sudden you hear "STING RAYS!!!! OMGAH!!!!! DON'T LET IT NEAR YOUR HEART!!!!!!!!" lmfao. my dad from across the house. i couldn't stop laughing. james finally understands why i act the way i act. i'm just like my dad, AND DAMN PROUD!!! :D 

imagine what my kids are gonna be like?? can't chu just waaait. :]

<333

i'm so bored.
i might be bleaching my hair blonde today.
ahaha.
can't waaaait.
i'm not telling like anyone i'm doing it either
and i'm writing this down because no one actually reads this thing anyway
and byt he time they do
i'd have already died my hair.
:D 
chyaaa.
i keep replaying curse of curves by cute is what we aim for
it's such a good songgg.
i'm in love with them currently. 
tehe.
i want the CD
i think i should go out and get it.
chyeups.
i'm gonna go to walmart and get off the computer now
<3

so today was good. it was lots and lots of fun. =] 
first i woke up and cleaned my room in like 8.7 seconds. 
it was hard, trust me. 
then james came over.
he gives me the butterflies. tehe. lol.
then when he left he left his hat here, which i highly doubt he'll get back anytime soon.
i want to see him again. lol.
and i just chilled at home taking pictures talking to people
and i spent time with muh family which was cool.
we all went to walmart and got tacobell too.
bobby payed. actually, bobby found 20$ in the publix parking lot
so whoever lost it payed.
james gets boners when you poke him with safety needles.
LOL. don't ask.
it's been a good day, and i've been happy like normal. 
i love being happy. no sad time, too happy.
'cept going to therapy.
i think i'll dress all gothic next time. muahaha.
freak her out a little bit. tehe.
<333

so once again i'm left confusing and lonely about the guys in my life.
like, lily i know you don't like james. my family doesn't like him really either.
so he was gonna ask me out, but now he's not... ?
it's driving me CRAZY. 'cause i can't decide whether or not there's hope for us.
whether or not i am  too either hold on or let go.
i want to hold on, but if we're not gonna go anywhere, then i can't.
then it'd be too hard. 
BUT WHATEVER.
i just wish he'd be straight up with me.
instead of telling laura everything.
who i am personally convinced he likes.
she's all "no bry your feelings wrong he doesn't like me he likes you alot."
but like, i dunno... 
just i want to know what's going on in my own life, please!!!!

affy died.

what the fcuk does "we should take a break" mean???
that she's gonna drag him along, keeping them together until she decides it's time for them to be together again???
that's fcuked up. i hope he doesn't go back to her again.
'cause, if he does. he's stupid. VERY stupid. 

i don't know how to say it to make it seem like he's not manipluating me, but i swear to God he isn't.
no one can really understand this, no oneeeee. 
and that hurts, alot. 
my sister thinks he's manipluating me, but she can't count.
she's had one boyfriend her entire life, and is gonna marry him. 
shannon, i guess could count but like..
he's SO different. he's def. not what you'd expect. 
i guess only people who actually know him can really say anything.
outsiders looking in get the wrong impression.
but i'm like... i'm "the other girl." and like
i don't wanna be "the other girl" i wanna be "the one girl" 
he would have kissed me again tonight if it wasn't for her. 
he even said so.
i'm just wondering who won this battle.. me or her.
he spent all night with me;; not with her. 
he spent all night laughing and kidding around and teasing me;; not her. 
i know him inside and out;; not her. 
you think i'd win, but i dunno. 
it's like, i instantly click with him. i'm so comfortable around him.
this may be the biggest mistake of my life, but i want to make this mistake. 
i'm not gonna wait around for him to make up his mind about whose more important.
the girl he loves or likes. 
and for him to decide whose who. 
but i can't garentee i'll "move on" because i can't really do that.
you can't just forget him. you can't. it's almost impossible.
i hate waiting around for things.
i want answers now. and i don't want to be "the other girl."

my last entry was very long.
ignore it. :]

i want my camera now. like, my new one.
actually i want my old one too... *coughs* beccah *coughs*
hehe. :]

yeah. that is all.

so here is my days.

on a days:
i go to typing class.
i hug mason berstler and he says something smart.
then i tell luke about 18 times how tired i am 
then i type. uncorrectly, but who gives a fuck. it's fast.
then i go to chorus. 
i sit next to melanie.
she says she's hungry or tired.
then we sing.
then i meet up with laura, and we go to lunch.
i find krysta, and we eat.
then i go out to the courtyard where me and krysta hang out with joey
and whoever else is around us.
usually mason acampora too.
then mason and me walk to english
where i sit next to austin.
and he teases me because my poem is stupid.
stfu, austin.
then seventh period. 
i sit behind leah, next to mason, across from pokemon.
it's boring.
today there was the peprally.
i sat next to mason and krysta.
beccah melanie and corrine behind me.
joey two rolls in front of me.

b days:
i walk to spanish
i sit down and i don't say a word.
we do some stuff in spanish then we get outta that class.
i go to algebra, which i hate.
i'm also pretty quiet in that class.
we do stupid stuff, jermel tries to get ms. avila off task.
then 5th period.
actually, i go straight to lunch.
find krysta, sit down and eat.
then courtyard, and i talk to mason krysta and joey
and whoever else
sometimes pokemon.
then english with austin
and he makes fun of my poem cause it's stupid
stfu austin.
oooooh.
and i make fun of mason...
because he's stupid.
then 6th period. science.
i sit next to taylor and we're loud and talk.
alot.
mason///taylor///me.
loud.
then i go home..


it'a almost a routine.
sad. :/

i like austin.
he almost broke my hand today.
at the peprally.
kthx.
he's cool when he talks. :]
i can't wait til monday.
new kyle xy episode.
my teacher knows about kyle xy.
and he DOESN'T die.
yayyyyyyyy.
yeah.
bored.
later.

highschool is fun. :]
i like it.

i like the cute guy that sits next to me in english.
who, btw, i have 5 classes with.

i like walking home almost everday.
or getting kevin to pick me up.

i like melanie coming home with me.
and us watching mad tv and laughing. :]

i like seeing joey in the morning and during lunch.
and talk to both mason's.

i like making new friends
and see old ones. :]

and i like that i don't have to deal with drama
at least not yet. which is good.




highschool is awesome [!]

and i'm getting my blue contacts soon.
and my new camera. it'll be great!

Pep Rally. :] I'm going with Joey. 

It's about to start raining here. 
And I have the football tickets WOOT WOOT.

Me and Krysta have been laughing our heads off at silly memories almost all day.
It's hilarious. Her, Shannon, and Kyle all ganged up on me and wouldn't let me cook. 

HAHA! :]

Some funny quotes. 

I will give you the money if you just say "Snakes on a plane will suck, but not as bad as the soundtrack. And you suck even wose if you go see it"
I am not saying that. 

Don't burn the house down or do anything stupid.
she won't do anything stupid. Cept mabey burn the house down.

Alright Bry. Your on cat duty.
Haaa. You said "Cat Duty."

*snickering in the middle of the hallway*
What?
Cat Duty.

Noooo. I want MY towel!!!
*grabs towel and throws it at my head*



My family is weird but I love them with all my heart. :]

I am bored;; and no one can come over and play DDR with me.
So I will subjected to insane dance modes by myself. YAY?

Movies last night. It was fun. Cheea dumped soda of Kyle's shirt (I was wearing it)
She's loud. 

I've been craving Vault since Melanie said something about it. 

Tomarrow my parents leave, and me and Shannon will have the house to ourselves.
We should throw a party. 

I've had reoccuring dreams;; That I don't wanna talk about. 
I'd rather forget they happened. That way I don't wake up crying cause there not real.
Dreams are stupid. Blah. 

Football game Friday.
And I'm pushing to get a new camera.
A nice looking camera.
It'll be mine soon. :]

Later<3

Woke up at 1pm.
Walked around the house and played online for a little bit.
Me and Shannon went to Publix in search of food.
Then to Kevin's where we ate food.
We watched Band Camp, which was a good movie.
Then Kevin fell asleep on Sean's bed... Me and Shannon on his bed.
Then it was 7pm so we went home.
We drank margarita's.
Larry the Cable Guy movie... again. :]
Now it's 1:43a.m and I have no one to talk to.
Kyle is in St. Augstine.
I want him to come home. Now.
I'm bored.
:/
I downloaded Myspace IM.
I dunno why.
Later<3

hmm.
interpet this please? 

GuitarFret18: friends
*** Auto-response sent to GuitarFret18: gone fishing. :]
stfu x bry: huh?
GuitarFret18: r we friends
stfu x bry: yeah.
GuitarFret18: for now
stfu x bry: uh yeah lol.
GuitarFret18: ok :]

so for now.. we're friends.
soon we won't be friends.
great.

his shirt, as scary as it is to put it on -- still smells EXACTLY like him.
i don't think i could hurt anymore than i do now.

fuck.fuck.fuck.
fuckity.fuck.fuck.
asshole.bastard.
die.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
:/
i'm so fucking hurt.

i've been listening to josh turner like all day.
it's time for a new styleeee.
:]
i'm gonna put in "the fray"

so i moved back into my room.
homo blue.
haah.
:]
and i've been in a good mood all day.

i stayed up til four last night, and my mom knew. 
so now i have to get off at 12.
and she's setting her clock so she can yell at me.
daydum!
:///

my bra is itchy.
isn't that interesting?

i've asked about 231804189032187532 people if i'm clingy and annoying.
i heart my friends.
they always make me feel better.
:]

i'm in the mood for...
the movie bambi and dancing around in my underwear.
chyeupssss.
:]